So, I had a lousy day at work today. Which, after about 4 months, isn't too bad. I mean, it usually takes under 3 weeks for the shit to hit the fan in some way, so I did pretty well this time. It wasn't something awful, I just did something stupid and got called on the carpet about it. I went to lunch, sat in the car and cried, listened to some loud music, ate a chili cheese dog (with mustard and onions) and then went back to work. The rest of the afternoon was frustrating because nothing worked the way I needed it to and, well, altogether, I am just going to chalk the whole thing up to " a case of the Mondays" and hope that tomorrow will be better.
It's frustrating because there was something that REALLY needed to get done last week and it's not even really started. I keep getting handed new "hot" tasks to do and I can't get the regular stuff that I am supposed to get done completed. And the bosslady is swamped with doing taxes and stuff so she doesn't have the time to help and there is the whole issue of my being there supposed to be HELP, not putting things back on the bosslady.
And if I didn't have a shitstorm of stuff going on in my personal life, I'd just work on stuff at home. And I suppose you could call "bullshit" on that because here I am blogging but after the day that I had today, I would be ineffective, at best, as far as getting anything done this evening.
I worry about stuff like today because the reality is that I am still "on probation" and I'm not stupid enough to think that I am irreplaceable. One call to the agency that they got me from and I could be out on my ass. Sure, I am now an "employee", but really, I know in today's economy "here today, gone tomorrow" is the harsh reality.
Tomorrow will be better, right?