Fuzzy Focus

I've had a hard time focusing lately. I feel like I am being pulled in multiple directions and I'm just not sure how to get on track. There is so much going on in my life.... so much going on in my head. I just want (need) things to calm down.

I have a contract to negotiate soon. It's not related to my day job and it's something I do annually but I get really worked up about having to do it every year. I am just hoping that the negotiation goes smoothly, that I'm not going to have to make too many compromises and that I can just get it done and get on with my life.

I am also thinking that between now and the end of the year, I need to get myself a makeover (a new look and a new outlook) and maybe make some decisions about what I want to be when I grow up. I still like my job, but I don't feel invaluable and feel like it is my job to make myself invaluable. I have been taking in some seminars/classes to expand my skills & knowledge but I just feel like there is something else I need to/should be doing with my life.

I am also thinking of writing some bits here that may eventually get put together into a book. But I probably won't get to that until 2012, there are just too many other things going on.